Joe went back to work today. I cried. I guess it's not that surprising, really; turns out, you pretty much have a 6 week period to deal with (both physically and emotionally) after giving birth. Consequently, I've cried every day since L was born... but this was different. Before she came, we thought if he took roughly two weeks off from work, it would be plenty. It never crossed our minds that it would be so hard. A lot of it is insecurity. Cesarians are no joke in terms of recovery. L was born on a Monday, and until that Friday when we came home, I was incapable of doing anything but feeding her. Joe took over burping, diapers, swaddling, and everything in between. So really, I've only had about a week of hands on experience.
But mostly, these past 10 days have been the best of my life and the time spent with Joe and our baby has brought me such immense happiness. I wasn't expecting to feel SO much joy, and I'm just a little sad to see this part of it come to an end. The good thing, however? This just means new beginnings and so much more to look forward to with my little family.
*On co-sleeping... it's kind of funny that I thought I would have a say in this, because Lucia will have it NO other way.
I'm so happy for your joy.
ReplyDeleteyou have such a graceful outlook, celia. life with your little family is going to be beautiful.
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh, that photo.... (*tear*) what a beautiful family you have. xo.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right about co-sleeping! Alice is in our bed most of the time...and it was not the initial plan!
ReplyDeleteAnd OMG, your baby is so adorable :)
Take care xox
Best photo EVER.
ReplyDeleteSWADDLED.
ReplyDeleteHeart melting. Seriously. And I don't say that often.
ReplyDeleteYou guys are such a beautiful family! Being on your own with the baby isn't always easy, but you'll figure it out... and how wonderful that you are feeling so happy! That will make the hard days easier to deal with :)
ReplyDeleteBeautiful photo. Really lovely.
ReplyDeleteMy daughter still sleeps with me most nights. Won't mention how old she is! I know the day will come when she won't want to anymore. I'll cry on the inside that day.
Most gorgeous photo.
ReplyDeleteSo glad that things are going well and you are feeling so happy, even with the tears it brings.
There is so much good out there ahead of you.
That foto is so beautiful! I bet you must feel so much joy with this family
ReplyDeleteAnd I bet you will soon be back to normal again after your cesarian!
You are right. It is so hard. Dealing with the baby on your own can be so overwhelming in the midst of all that you are going through emotionally and physically. Just remember that none of this initial day-to-day stuff means much in the long run. You just have to survive it. So if the baby naps on you or on the swing, or if you don't shower or don't leave the house, or if you cry all day or can't stop smiling, it will all be okay. There is no plan, no right way, and you sound like you are making the most of your time. Enjoy!
ReplyDeletewelcome lucia! (that was almost elodie's name!) and it is so true, babies have their way of running the show. just go with the flow mama - you are on a roller coaster of hormones right now. cry, laugh and love that baby and husband!
ReplyDeleteSo cute... I understand the feeling. Just give yourself time. You're a great mama. The overwhelming stage does pass, becomes the new normal, even sometimes easy.
ReplyDeleteLove the photo! Soo sweet
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